Yes, today is my birthday.
My 47th birthday. On a Tuesday. So..... not anything to get too revved up about.
BUT the sun is shining which is a welcome change and we should always be grateful for another year to try and get this whole life thing right. God knows I'm still working on it.
Exhibit A: Last night I had a terrible night's sleep in that "sleeping" was not what I was doing at all, and then the scale decided to gift me a number this morning that I was in no mood to see (Do not even ask me why I opted to weigh in ON MY BIRTHDAY! I never claimed to be mentally stable.), and then I found out that Snow Miser was going to foil my sweet husband's attempts to get home for my birthday, and then I decided that all of that meant I should eat some seriously crap food for lunch which really only served to make me feel gross (WHEN WILL I LEARN??)...
....and so then I decided I better make a Happy List and quick!!!!
1. Birthday Memories
|My 40th Birthday with two of my best girls.|
Feels like yesterday and a lifetime ago.
One of my most special happy/sad birthday memories that I've been thinking about a lot lately is the one I celebrated after we lost our babies. It had been four months and I was still mostly spending my days alone at home, but I think Tracy knew that with the right people, in a familiar environment, it would be good for me to be with friends. She gently floated the idea of a small dinner at her house with just a handful of close friends. I still have the picture we took that night and I can see in my eyes so clearly what that gathering meant to me. I look tired, and a little sad, but also hopeful. I was smiling and for one of the first times in those four months, the smile was real.
She was a big part of so many of my best birthday moments and while I miss her desperately, I'm trying to cherish the memories and keep smiling- just as she would want me to.
2. Sweet friends & family
I have gotten so many nice messages today that it's impossible to remain in a funk for too long. I especially appreciate everyone who has encouraged me to partake in as many sweet things as possible without guilt or regret.
My people get me.
One of my favorite birthday messages came from one of my oldest and dearest friends (We have literally known each other since birth. Well, her birth since I was born a month earlier than her.). This friend has always rivaled Tracy in her ability to NEVER forget an occasion and to always send a card on time.
(Sigh...she really puts her postally challenged lifelong friend to serious shame. But not really because she's the nicest person ever so therefore has never shamed anyone in her life.)
Anywhooooo.... Lucky for me in addition to being incredibly nice she also has a just-the-right-amount-of-spicy sense of humor and totally gets me.
This card made me laugh and laugh...
Oh, I do love a good purse.
Did I mention the sun is shining today?
Cold. Still snow on the ground. We will take what we can get.
4. Messages for the Moment
I don't know about you but sometimes it's just plain WEIRD how certain messages can come through at just the right time.
One of my favorite books of daily readings had this thought for my birthday (why it doesn't actually say "Lori's Birthday" I do not know.)
"I want that spirit or force of happiness that is so much deeper than happy- peace that comes from you toes..."
5. After School Snacks
Annie has the best after school snack ideas.
When I wondered if we really should have ice cream at 3:00, Annie wisely said, "Mom. Treat yo' self!"
And so we did.
Happy Fat Tuesday, Friends!